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entry 001. january 30th, 20XX.

fucking.

evil. evil evil evil i'm evil and terrible

i'm an awful person and i deserve to die

i am so miserable but i can't let it fester

i have to turn this into something else

all of this anger that used to be love

fuck FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK

i need to FUCK

i need something to

make me feel alive again

the drugs only do so much

the medication hasn't done anything

i feel like an angel trying to stretch its wings in the bottom of a well

there is a chain around my ankles

even if you stretched out your hand

you couldn't save me

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